I've stopped taking my medication for about a week now and i've noticed that I love myself again. It feels good. I feel like how I felt before i was bipolar. My medication tended to make me really timid and worried about what other people thought about me. Thats not how i want to live life. I'm not an expert on self love, but i think that its super important if you want to be happy. I think my self love comes from the inner strength and confidence that i feel when i'm off my medication. I don't feel manic I just feel an inner peace. I've always had this gut feeling inside me that we're better off without our medication and i think i'm now starting to feel it. I think the medication kills our inner beauty. It might make us better able to function in society but what is that worth if you can't feel happy and strong. Sounds like slavery to me.
Sleeping problems: Its been difficult to sleep at times without the medication, but not impossible. I bought some calming CDs like "Ocean Waves" and "Forest Sounds" which have helped me sleep. Personally, I can't sleep because my mind obsessively thinks about situations, but when I focus my attention on the calming sounds of the CDs then my mind can relax and i can fall asleep. I also find that it helps to eat something before bed.
Hope you're feeling well
